How the Magic of Earth Oracle Deck Supported Me Through Miscarriage

I remember feeling really anxious while waiting for lab results, and a friend suggested I pull a card to help gain clarity around the situation. I thought that was a great idea. So that night after work, I sat down on my couch, cleared the energy of the deck, shuffled the cards, and asked for clarity around what was happening. I pulled Resilient. Instantly, my heart sank—and I knew what that meant. I was having a miscarriage.

A few days earlier, my fertility acupuncturist suggested I get labs drawn to make sure things were progressing as they should be. On Wednesday morning, I was sitting in my car at work when the results came in, and I instantly panicked. The pregnancy hormone (HCG) and progesterone were both much lower than I expected for being five weeks along.

Being a nurse, I did what so many of us do—I Googled the normal ranges. But I found mixed results. Some said those numbers could be normal in early pregnancy, others said they were lower than expected. I walked into work crying, stressed out and overwhelmed. A friend reassured me that it still could be okay and encouraged me to wait for the next set of results 48 hours later. But deep down, I already knew.

My intuition told me I was having a miscarriage, but I wasn’t ready to believe it. So when I pulled the Resilient card that evening, it felt like confirmation of what I already knew. Still, I held onto hope—hoping maybe I was wrong. But on Friday morning, when I got the next set of labs, my heart broke. My HCG had dropped. I was miscarrying and I was heartbroken.

Since Lindsay and I created the Magic of Earth Oracle Deck, I’ve used the cards off and on. But this was the first time they truly felt like they were guiding me. Like they were showing up for me. Since then, I’ve continued to use them throughout my fertility journey to gain clarity and insight on where I might be in the process.

One spread I come back to often is the past, present, and future. It helps me see where I’ve been, where I’m at, and where I might be going. It’s brought me reassurance and peace—reminding me that I’m exactly where I’m meant to be, even if it doesn’t always feel that way.

This was one of the past, present, future spreads I pulled

It hasn’t been easy. But I’m continuing to trust the process and believe that things will unfold in divine timing. For anyone who has had a miscarriage, pregnancy loss, on the fertility journey-- I see you.